The harsh REALITY of being a Kaigai IDOL

In the effort of sharing my journey as authentically as possible, I wanted to share a more vulnerable moment I had this week as I struggled with some anxious feelings around the sustainability of being an Idol.

For years it's something I've strived towards, and put every effort into being the best performer I can be, but showbusiness, and entertainment, is tough. I understand that only a rare few truly make it, and whilst I've had so many incredible moments of happiness and memories that will last my lifetime. This realization is one I cannot ignore, even if I don't know what action to take next.

It's heartbreaking to me that I haven't been able to support myself more, I'm going to make it my main goal moving forward, to priorities my own wellbeing, emotionally, financially and physically.

I love talking to my friends about their goals,
Now I need to go out and redefine mine...

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CHAPTERS:
0:00-0:27: welcome back!
0:27-7:43: the breakdown
7:43-11:17: recharging on a trip to fuji
11:17-12:16: costume grind begins
12:16-14:12 : calming down a lil
14:12-15:19: my skin still breaking out
15:19-15:43: cooking episode

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Free Music for Videos 👉 Music by Coodysan & Dakkuma - Liminal
Free Music for Videos 👉 Music by MP3vius - back in the day
Free Music for Videos 👉 Music by Blue Sirens - Less Traveled